Dear Self,

I love you with all my heart. I promise I will never leave you. If it seems like I am not there, it is because I have gotten lost in what used to be, and I will find my way back to you again, always. You are my center, my hope, my joy, and my reason to continue living. You have the potential of the Universe within you, and I know I will see you fulfill every ounce of it because of the love I feel for you and the power you possess to make anything happen. Our love will spill over and touch the lives of others, and we will never know its true power until we are long gone. I will take care of you. Even when I'm scared to, even when I'm afraid you'll be mad at me if I mess up, I will do everything I can to make you happy. I believe in you. I believe in your hopes and your dreams, and I believe you when you say you're scared, or mad, or happy, or confused. I trust you. Even though I have never really trusted anyone completely, I trust you. I have to trust you. If I can't trust you, there is no hope of ever being able to really trust anyone. I see the Divine in you. I see your completeness, your wholeness, your bright light shining itself upon everyone and everything. I see you as perfect. You are perfect. When you look in the mirror, I want you to see me looking back at you, loving you in your perfection and completeness. I want you to know that no one has ever loved you as I have, and no one ever will. Even when I didn't know it, I loved you. I couldn't see it because I was looking somewhere else for you. I thought I'd find you in another person. But you've always been there. I am grateful I finally found you.

I'm sorry I ignored you. I'm sorry that I couldn't tell you that I loved you. I'm sorry I abandoned you time after time because I thought, incorrectly, that the answers to my questions were elsewhere. I'm sorry that I didn't believe that other people were wrong and you were right. I'm sorry I took on their problems and sorrows and left you in order to fix them. I'm sorry I never told you how important you are to me and how your presence in my life makes me glow. I'm sorry I stayed hidden for so long and I want you to know that I know that what I did hurt you. I can't change that, but I can tell you that from now on it's going to be different.

I am going to treasure you for the rest of my life. We are going to have fun and laugh and cry together and build sand castles and swing on swings and play pretend until it gets dark. We're going to eat things that make our tummies say "yay!" and look for fairies and feel kitties purr on our cheeks. I'm going to hug you and tell you everything is going to be okay. We'll do it all... together.

I commit myself to my relationship with you, and even if I fall down sometimes, I will always get back up to walk with you. I am always with you. (Spirit said to tell you she's always there, too, just in case you forgot).

Everything is going to be okay.

Love,
Me
xoxoxo

I bought a new meditation pillow to try out this whole meditation thing. I finally used it for about 5 minutes last night, which is a HUGE step forward for me. I have a tendency to buy something and then never use it, allowing it to take up space and energy in my life until I get fed up and get rid of it. The other choice I often make is to feel guilty about spending the money on something I don't "need." {What if I should be spending that money on something more productive? I should also be spending my time on something more productive.} <= These are the thoughts that go running through my brain. So I meditated and let the thoughts run rampant in my brain. In speaking with others, the beginning is the hardest because I have not learned how to create that quiet space inside me. I don't like being alone with myself, quietly, for 30 seconds, much less minutes or (*gasp*) hours. But I took that step last night... I now have one more experience under my belt. Which is pretty awesome since I'm discovering that experience really is what it's all about. :-)

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